I can't begin to describe the conflicting emotions that come along with this whole process. In James 1:27 we read "Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is to care for the orphans and widows in their distress." I have to admit there are times I wish I had not ever read this verse but I did and the passion to give these three children a family is so real! I cannot begin to tell you how desperately I want to be in Ukraine this Christmas but at the same time how desperately I want to be at home with Hannah, Annette, and Ivy.
I like to be in control. I like to joke. I like to be disagreeable. Right now and this might not be "spiritual" but I am really scared. I have to trust my in-laws to care for our girls. I have to trust Abel to run my business. I have to trust Dave to watch our house. I have to trust God to get us through this.
In Evan Almighty there is a quote that really hit me about how God doesn't give patience or faith he puts you in situations that require patience and faith. We have chosen to put ourselves in a situation that will require dependence on God. In Exodus 17 the Israelite battle was won when Aaron and Hur held Moses' hands high. These next couple months will not be easy and we need you to please "hold our hands up" in this journey. Please partner with us in prayer.
This song sums up how I am feeling tonight!